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The test came back negative yesterday.
I guess I knew that I wasn't prego.
I am generally very aware of my body.
Eerily so sometimes.
But no matter what I subconciously knew I still had hope.
And it still hurts the same.
I am used to getting these results but this time was worse.
Ryan truly believed that it had worked and he was devastated.
Usually he is the optimistic one but yesterday I has to play that role.
Which was for the best bc this kind of pain can be overwhelming if uncontrolled.
I am trying to stay positive.
I don't want to ruin robins wedding.
It's not fair to make everyone suffer.
Sorry if this blog has spelling errors I'm updating from my phone.
We are on the road headed to okc.

Moving stinks!

Quick run down of our week.

Monday the movers came to pack up all of our "non-temporary storage".
Since we don't know where we are going to live in Hawaii we are sticking to the better safe than sorry approach.
We didn't want to have to be forced to sell things that wouldn't fit into our new house, so off to storage it went.
Called about getting our car shipped.
Found out that we need a letter from Honda saying that we can ship the car to Hawaii.
Called Honda they said "oh no problem it will take 48 hours to get that out to you".
Well, that is not good considering we hoped to ship my car this week.
It takes 30 days to get a car to Hawaii, so I guess we are just out of luck.
Now we are going to have no vehicle when we get there, poopie.

Tuesday the movers came to pack up our "unaccompanied baggage".
This is up to 900 lbs of things that will arrive in 30 days instead of 60.
So hopefully when we get to the island, these things will get there shortly afterward.
After the movers left we went on post and stopped by the vet clinic to make sure everything was ready.
We had to get this special blood test done for the dogs in order to avoid the 120 day quarantine.
The test took 5 weeks to get results and cost $80!
Anyway, they both passed and so I asked what the next step was.
Well, surprise paying more money is the next step.
We found out that the state of Hawaii charges $165 per pet to enter the island!
And if you don't pay that before you arrive, the price jumps to $225 per pet.
YAY!!
Afterward someone from the Army called to tell Ryan that he couldn't take his leave.
Ryan changed his start date for the Blackhawk so that he would be able to go to Robin's wedding.
Everything he has done since he found out the date has revolved around being at the wedding.
So he put in his leave request weeks ago and it was approved.
We were supposed to leave this Saturday for OKC.
Well, the new commander decided that was impossible.
Granted, next week is very busy and important but come on.
He told Ryan that the earliest he could leave was Thursday at midnight (July 1st).
Well her wedding is on July 3rd.
It takes 13 hours to get there.
So basically we would get there just in time for the rehearsal dinner after driving all night.

Wednesday the movers came to pack up everything else.
It takes them all day.
Ryan goes to talk to his commander again and gets a bunch of crap.
Finally gets them to let him leave on Tuesday.
Honda calls and says that they need some more info (thanks for telling me this two days ago!!)
So I fax all the info they wanted.
I fill out all of the paperwork for the dogs to enter Hawaii and mail the money orders.
Sorry bank account.

Today the movers didn't come even though they were supposed to.
Honda calls to say they never received my fax.
I fax it all again.
I call them and they say they can't read it.
I fax it again.
Never get a call back.
So I guess that's on my list for tomorrow.
Along with the movers coming to load all of our boxes and furniture.
Then the cleaning begins.

I will be so happy when we get to Hawaii and don't have to worry about moving for a few more years!!

Sorry for all of the ranting but hey its my blog!

Now for some good stuff.

PUPO fact of the day:
If we are prego, our babies little body will have all of its essential structures on August 6th!

5 more days!

Today has been a horrible day.
I am sitting in the computer lab at a housing office for a neighborhood I don't live in.
If that gives you an indication of things.

I am in a hurry so I will have to vent to you guys later.

PUPO fact of the day:
If we are prego; our babies arms and legs will start forming on July 8th!!

That is just around the corner, how crazy!!

Love you guys.

Please pray for us.

6 days to go!

PUPO fact of the day:

If we are prego, our babies heart will beat for the first time on July 4th!!

Bonus PUPO fact for Janette:

We like the name Zachary for a boy.

We like the name Rylee for a girl.
But we would love some more suggestions.
HINT, HINT!

The movers came for some of our things yesterday.
It is so crazy to think we are finally getting out of here!
They are supposed to come back today too but they are not here yet.
Everything should be out of our house by Thursday!
Then we are moving in with Troy for the remainder of our Bama lives.

Ryan bought me my birthday present last night.

I know it's a month early but we were afraid it might be more expensive in HI.

Here is a pic from the website:

I have the best husband in the WHOOOOOOOLE world.
And that's a fact.

One week down, one to go!

I have officially completed my first week of the two week wait
(or the "2ww" as the infertility community calls it).
So to celebrate my last week of torture I will be posting a fact everyday.
I was googling something or other about IVF the other day and stumbled on a cool website.
It asks you to input your egg retrieval date and it gives you a time line of your pregnancy.
(If you are blessed enough to get pregnant, of course).
I am going to be living by the "PUPO" method for the next week.
"PUPO" stands for pregnant until proven otherwise.
Okay so for my first PUPO fact.

Due Dates!

If we are pregnant with one baby our due date would be:
March 3, 2011

If we are pregnant with two babies our due date would be:
February 9, 2011

If we are pregnant with three babies our due date would be:
January 13, 2011

It's good to be home!!

I am finally home :)
After 2+ weeks living at the Fisher House.
I finally got to sleep in my own bed last night!

Ryan came with two of his flight school buddies down to Biloxi on Friday night.
They didn't get in until around 11:30 which is way past my bed time.
So they went to the casino and I stayed at the FH to get some beauty sleep.
When Ryan came home later that night he woke me up waving a pile of cash on his face.
My first thought was "why in the world did he take all that money out of the atm"??
Then he explained that he went with $20 to spend.
We are not big gamblers obviously.
Or I should say I am not a big gambler and he is a reformed gambler.
(Bad experience in Vegas).
Anyway, he took his $20 to the penny slots.
He said he was down to $15 when he hit some sort of jackpot and won $160!
So he cashed out immediately and went over to the roulette table and then the blackjack table.
At each place he played until he lost once and then cashed out.
He came home with around $180!!
We NEVER win anything at the casino so this is very exciting to us.
And we recouped the money it cost for him to drive his buddies down, buy them dinner and pay their hotel.
Because lets face it, they came to drop him off, not because they really wanted to.

Ryan is completely done with flight school!!!
Now we just have to wait around for graduation.
The movers are coming everyday next week to pack different shipments of our stuff.
By next Friday our house will be empty and we will be on the road to OKC!
We will be there for about a week for Robin's wedding and then it's right back here for graduation.
Then it's off to Hawaii!
We have already been assigned a leasing agent.
So hopefully as soon as we get to the island we can pick a house.

Well I am off to try to bring the house back to normal.
A housekeeper Ryan is not.

Big date!

Our pregnancy test date has been set.
June 28th will be the big day :)
Let the count down begin!
10 days to go!!!!!!!!!!!!